Well, I had to wait a few days to post this because of the nature of how this experience played out, but now I think I can deliver a completed picture.
As the Blood Full Moon was waxing, there was a build-up of many dis-harmonious energies, as if they were getting moved up and out. For myself and a close empathic friend, who has always shared the ability to feel other’s energy, we were really feeling anxious and almost toxic levels of fear coming up for both of us the weeks preceding the full moon. While I can understand certain pressures and issues being stressful, it was more like a pestilence of fear being reigned down upon us.
As the 4:20pm (EDT) eclipse was occurring, my friend and I decided to go to the cemetery to observe this event in a special way. I knew of a limestone monument that looked like the Temple of Delphi that I thought we could sit near. As we approached, there was instead someone planted on the steps looking like the Oracle of Delphi himself, with a long white beard, sandals, and earbuds, having a fairly loud conversation. I jokingly commented to my friend that we had come to see the Oracle, but he was on his cell phone, and therefore we would have to get the answers, in our battered state, within!
After a few minutes, as the clock rounded 4:20pm I suggested we walk across the ridge to a nearby sight, which we did. As we went over the hill, almost telepathically, we both noticed a loss of bodily awareness. It was as if we were one with the liquidity of the wind, sun, and leaves, as we walked among the tombs. At one point my friend even started to point his index finger “hither”, as if imitating the spirit of the dead.
We next noticed a group of visitors at a great distance and it became obvious to us both at the same time that they were in the 3rd dimension and we were in the 4th. At that moment, I exclaimed, “I like death, it’s fun!” This was in contrast to a life-long joke we always made with the trite phrase, “I like life, it’s fun!”, during times of duress.
I cannot stress the surreal quality of this eclipse, as we strolled among the tombs in an altered state looking for gravestones with our names on them as it was pretty evident that we weren’t “in Kansas anymore.” As we turned the bend, as if this couldn’t get any more ‘over the top’ we both saw an albino deer standing before us. I’ll never forget the look on my friend’s face at that point. We walked up to it and it did not walk away.
By the time we returned to the Temple, the Oracle had gone, and we eventually made it back to the living. The next morning my cousin told me, in relation to this story, that she had just listened the night before to a tape of Harry Potter before bed, and that at one point Harry needed a symbol of protection from the dark forces, and was given the symbol of a white stag. I too feel as if we were given the same protective symbol having stood before the white fawn, because the next day, as the fear energy came up, just the recollection of those inter-dimensional moments of the eclipse, dissolved the energy away, both for my friend and later that day, for me.
This leads me to conclude that the journey we are all on, is allowing us glimpses of a more
gentle and nurturing state, far from the toxicity of the Matrix (society and its system built on competition, judgment, belief in lack, and fear). This realm of nature, inner awareness and love is what lies ahead as we leave the confines of a limiting existence of dependence on this collapsing system.
We are being incrementally assisted forward to higher vibrations, energetic connectivity to the full spectrum of our being and awareness of love, through planetary and cosmic waves of light. With every month new alignments, downloads and activations are ushering our awareness within and our expansion inter-dimensionally without. And as we take charge of ourselves, our bodies, and our emotions and overcome the toxic overload of the Matrix, we will come to harmonize with a new system based not on commerce, but on love, happiness and the well-being of all.
July 26, 2018
As we approach the Eclipse of July 2018, I can’t help but voice my complaints of the flaring energies that are in my face and my body, assuring me that all is not well! With such distraction and uneasiness, it forced me to gain a stronger footing in what I know to be true – that I am connected to Source, I am protected and I am a force of good that can, with proper care, shine my light within and without.
In delving deeply within to untie this knot of anxiety, existential overwhelm, fear, and survival tension, I came to see they are all connected to my identification with victim-hood, isolation, ideas of being not ‘good enough’ and *guilt (see below footnote).
Society (the Matrix) sells the idea that we need its support- to survive. However, it is fashioned to place us in the mindset of survival instead. It forces us to work ourselves into a weakened state so we are never strong enough to pull out of its parasitic grip. Jobs, retirement, healthcare, education, entertainment, religion, politics, you name it, are not sustaining or supportive institutions. Working for or engaging with them is draining our well-being.
In order to realize we are GOOD enough, and we are Sovereign (self-sustaining) when engaged in our connection to Source, (which for each individual is the higher-self) I think the following analogy can help.
The analogy is one of likening our being to a large naval ship. Our body is the ship, the crew, our emotions, the captain is our higher-self or soul, and the first-mate, the mind/ego. The sonar and radar, are our guides and angels, the fuel and power (and filtration and plumbing) is our breath, and the anchor is our grounding (grounding ourselves to the earth by using our inner seeing to tether a cord to our tailbone or 1st chakra).
As we travel through life, the vast ocean with its various illusions, climates, and external pulls and influences is the Matrix or Society. The ship is in present time, and so it actually never actually moves. The ports and sights are actually drawn to the ship instead.
As we navigate the journey of life, if the Captain and First-mate have a great relationship, the ship will be tight. If the first mate nurtures the crew (emotions), there will be no mutiny. If we stay steady, and cohesive in our internal functioning, breathing and grounding, and not being swayed by the illusions that take place off-ship, we will not be prone to an invasion of pirates (negative energy). By trusting the Captain and First-mate to plan the course, we will draw the journey our Source directs through the passion and mission and deepest fulfillment of our entire vessel (being).
In conclusion, let it suffice to say that with this gateway of a new timeline coming into alignment, we are best suited to not be swayed by all the forces of the societal ‘sea’, but to stay on the deck of the ship in solidarity to the crew and Captain and allow the shores of a new world to be drawn to our self-sustaining Light. As we move forward taking time to unplug from our daily life and cultivate this on-board cohesiveness, (see prior post on Breathing as meditation) we will quickly manifest a way out of our dis-empowerment and join the ranks of other’s all doing the same. One by one changing the course of our collective timeline toward Love, the good of all and a sustainable future.
In the case of *guilt which is what makes us a target for fear, we are programmed to be the focus of society’s accusations – we are wrong, we are not good enough, we don’t have the right forms, we don’t fit in, we don’t have the right stuff, we are weak, we lost the game, etc.-and it begins from our innocence in childhood and continues on into our jaded (self-defense posturing) and fear-racked maturity. We walk around silently holding or gripping the belief of our guilt of society’s accusations deep within us. If you were holding contraband in your pocket and had to go to a customs inspection, you would be racked with fear. If you didn’t have that item in your pocket, you’d have no fear when you were being questioned. So, similarly, when we are walking around with a programmed identity based on guilt, we are a target for fear.
July 22, 2018
Just checking in with everyone – finding downtime is essential at this point as the fear energies are glaringly loud! It feels like trying to hum my own song with some awful song blaring in the foreground! When it gets like this, I like to just start deeply breathing (diaphragm breathing- slow deep breaths to the count of 8 or 10 seconds in and out) and connect to my higher self, which is just a matter of breathing and knowing it is present – silent but present. The higher-self has a unique way of communicating with us, as it is really just the eternal ‘us’ that is watching over our growth. When we tune into it – we have an opportunity to get help – if we just focus with love and appreciation on what is there watching over us as we deeply breathe –the response will become evident after a few minutes. After 10 minutes, which is a form of meditation or prayer, things will actually be very different – below are some great talking points of Breathing as meditation or prayer and at the end I will sum up the benefits in 10 steps.
As we nourish the body with air (the breath is how the energy of consciousness enters every part of the body reservoir), we invite the energy of our conscious awareness (the higher self or our soul) into present time, as the body is the only part of us that is always in present time. This activity of deeply breathing, grounds our soul’s support in partnership with our mind’s focus on the soul’s presence in the now –which is the secret to empowerment.
Empowerment is what we exude when the full spectrum of our attention is supplying the body in present time– for when our mind’s awareness is alternatively in the past or future, we are not eligible for opportunities and miracles. Those welcomed surprises are only offered to us when we are aware in present time.
Secondly, as we inspire (inhale) deeply, we begin to gain insights and realizations that hadn’t dawned on us before – this form of telepathy is how the soul’s presence inspires communication.
Third, when we infiltrate our body with this conscious breath, breathing into areas that are stiff, in pain, concentrated with fear, etc., they immediately begin to relax and release. You can easily create a healing meditation with this aspect alone. As you breathe in this consciousness of pure Love, which is what your higher-self is in energy form, you can imagine love inflating any physical or emotional tension, allowing it to be bathed in purifying light, and on the exhale, letting go of the illness or shadow energies.
Fourth, the energy of our soul or higher-self is Love itself. As love is the highest vibration and is 5th dimensional by nature, we can raise our vibration as soon as we begin to breathe this energy into the body, releasing any lower vibrations that are in our space, such as fear, doubt, depression, etc. Of all the healing vibrations, Love, then humor, then enthusiasm are the highest energies we can hold and are always present to engage in when we remember to.
Fifth, spending time (10-20 minutes) breathing and sending a mental “I love you” to your Soul with every deep breath, we find ourselves, over the course of this daily routine (preferably in the morning) bonding to this larger self, or establishing a partnership with it.
The Soul is an actual infinitesimally small as well as individual ‘ember’ of the original creator, giving it the same abilities to provide us with all we need. It must, however follow a law of “non-interference”, as we (our minds) have free will to choose, so it cannot impose its guidance. So, it is up to us to seek out a relationship with it. Once we do, a bonding occurs over the days, weeks, and months that cause us to start to trust it, and this begins corroding the fear of navigating life all on our own against the Matrix.
Sixth, the Matrix – or Society, is a challenging environment designed to feed off of us until we awaken to our Soul (our ability to love and share love). It’s meant to strengthen us in the same way pressure on carbon creates a diamond. Until we awaken, we live in a dream that is ruled by FEAR, BELIEF IN LACK, COMPETITION AND JUDGMENT. Those tenants are what allow the dream to hypnotize. When we deeply breathe and connect to our soul, we effectively unplug from the Matrix, breaking our connection to our subconscious mind (which only councils us with those four beliefs) and this dream allowing us to begin to awaken. (It is like turning your phone off so it resets). The more you practice unplugging, the more you change your council from fear to love, or from subconscious to higher-self.
Seventh, as you breathe and bond with the Soul, you have the opportunity to start to manifest your passions and dreams by finishing your meditation off with a few minutes of planning your day. This is simply asking your soul, with gratitude, for what you would like to happen during the day ahead, and specifically for the week or month, including how you’d like events to unfold.
I ask for meetings to go well, opportunities to unfold, or whatever I’d like to draw to myself. The key to this is not to doubt, once you’ve asked. Also, just as the soul cannot impose its guidance, due to the law of non-interference, it has another law it must uphold which is, when you ask, it is given. Just make sure you ask a few mornings in a row, describing what you need in the most thorough and most concise way, and then wait for a sign, an intuition, or be patient without doubt and it will present itself. Doubt is our free will, and is the only thing that will stop what you ask for from manifesting.
10 Benefits of Deeply Breathing
- Diaphragm breathing for the count of 8-10 seconds on the inhale and exhale for 20 minutes in the morning, during the day and before bed is a way to pray, meditate and get to bond with your higher self.
- Within a few seconds, it will raise your vibration.
- When your vibration is high, any lower vibration cannot reside in your field, so you will begin to yawn, releasing both negativity, lower energies such as anxiety and fear, as well as other’s energy from your energy field.
- When you repeat “I love you” to your Soul as you deeply breathe, you will grow close to it and it will allow you to grow trust in it, so you no longer fear random acts of horror lurking from some “unknown source”.
- As you have the quietude and attention of the Soul, you can start to plan your day, week, month or year, by co-creating with it. This insures your passions coming into your field, not your fears (which happens when you defer to the sub-conscious to co-create your day, week, month or year).
- You begin to get inspiring thoughts, ah-ha moments, or solutions to problems that seem to just pop up. This is your higher self telepathically giving you answers.
- While your awareness is deeply grounding through the breath into your body (which is the only thing in present time) you become empowered, ready and able to spot opportunities, witness miracles, and with clarity, act from intention.
8.Your mental fears, anxieties, and overwhelm will dissipate within a few minutes because the soul is there to comfort the mind with its support of oxygen and love vibration.
- All physical ailments will be lessened or relieved within a few minutes.
10.You will be recharged and revitalized of energy after you deeply breathe for 20 minutes no matter how you were feeling before.